For those that know me, you know I am not the biggest fan of flying. In fact, from the years of 9-19 I was so terrified of flying, I convinced my family to drive to our vacations and that we did.
My fear of flying was mostly triggered by some crazy turbulence my family & I experienced flying from Seattle down to San Diego when I was 9. The ride was so rough and I could not understand, as a 9 year old, what was happening. All I could feel was the jerking of the plane, the plane hitting what felt like the deepest potholes I could ever imagine. I was convinced that the plane was going down.
Since then, I prayed and prayed to overcome this fear of flying and I feel, for the most part, I have. I mean... at least I can get on a plane (prime example: I am currently in Colorado!). But now something new happens when I am flying: I sit in anticipation of bad turbulence. I cannot relax because I am constantly awaiting the "horrific potholes" that are "destined" to happen.
I am feeling that way in life right now. I sit in anticipation of something bad happening. I cannot just sit back and enjoy the miracles in life.
So, my reasoning for posting this is a pure cry for a team of prayer warriors to help me. I have woken up in fear many times in the past few months. Fearing the unknown, expecting the turbulence.
Friends & family, please help me in opening my heart to let the Lord work within me to heal me for the anticipation of life's turbulence.